The detestable WORD and the fermenting pandan cake

I absolutely detest, abhor and hate using Ms Word. The numbering for list always turns out wrong. Styles don’t always work as planned (or seemed). Crashes very often while working with certain style sheets.

Waste so much of my time fixing the formatting for my report! WTF!

Was hungry and went to find food. Ate 1 piece of the pandan cake i bought since Tuesday. I think I should have placed it in the fridge. I realized that the cake was mushy and had a wrid smell when I was just into my 2nd piece. SighS! Yucks!

I’m tired! Very tired! My arms are aching from werid position in fron tof a laptop. My back hurts. My head hurts. I need a long sleep … when, ah?!

Answering the call of duty …

, but that call never came. Instead, I got a rude shock when I turned on the TV this afternoon. I was working on my HYP report studiously and decided to take a break and eat something (my tummy was growling). I flicked on the TV and there was my unit’s mobilization code word. This was the first time there was a an open mobilization and that word … was flashing in front of me. I totally forgot that this was the weekend for standby. Gave a call to my friend to confirm that it was true … haha … also to check on what exactly I needed to bring back.

Packed my full pack (ramaging through my closet for the required items … since I had them so nicely tucked away, it was actually a hassle to locate where each item was hidden) and sbo and put on my No. 4 (thought I needn’t have to wear that at least for this year due to deferment and I was trying to find my belt when I realized that I had grown so much ‘bigger’ that I no longer needed a belt but actually grew to fit the pants nice and snugly … sighs!), fiddled with my boots (lucky I still remembered how to wear them) and rushed out of the house to catch a cab down, cos’ I had no idea when the mob started. No one called! Hmph! Very upsetting indeed. If I had no watched TV, I would have continued working on my HYP and went to church and totally missed the recall, which would have gotten me in deep shit. So, who’s fault?!

Anyway, I was damn lucky, cos’ although my Bn was recalled and most of the people needed to stay in (for goodness how long, heard there would be an exercise) I didn’t have to cos’ of some admin stuff. Oh well! I was glad. It was totally a bad time to be recalled. I had the looming deadline for my HYP and I still had to rush down to ‘ulu’-ness to check in. Total waste of a Saturday afternoon, not to say the least – cab fare. Now that this mob is out of the way, I guess there wouldn’t be another one for this year, i hope!

Next year?! haha … we’ll see …

Took a cab back with a couple of friends and I was just in time for church … (next post)!

What do you love doing?

“My object in living is to unite
My avocation and my vocation
As my two eyes make one in sight.
Only where love and need are one,
And the work is play for mortal stakes,
Is the deed ever really done
For Heaven and the future’s sakes.”
- (Two Tramps in Mud Time, Frost, 1964)

This just came in my inbox! (and though I have a splitting headache, I like to get this down.)

Yupz, the topic once again …  What do you love doing?! What is your passion!?

People have often asked themselves (or me, rather) what my passion is or where they lie. What I would want to do? What I would like to do? I did mention that it was difficult to decide because it’s impossible to say if you really are into something until you actually do it. A chat with a friend this afternoon revealed that he too was not so much into what he was doing – pursuing a phd. Right, spending all the time and effort and all without passion. It’s misery! It’s torture! It’s a waste of time and youthfulness.

Yet, if we never ever try for fear of not liking it, will we shortchange ourselves!?

So, a good friend asked me the same question but in a different manner:

What is it that even though things go bad, you will still continue to do it?

Now, this question is more profound and really questions the fundamental excitement level of things I feel. It’s not more like – What are you interested in? (What do you not mind doing?) but rather – What do you have to do no matter what?

This brings to mind another quote, quoted by one of the NOC alumni. I mention her name -Gwendolyn Tan – but I am not too sure if I ever met her or remember meeting her at any event.

“There’s a difference between interest and commitment. When you’re interested in doing something, you do it only when it’s convenient. When you’re committed to something you accept no excuses, only results.” – Art Turock

So, it’s this finding out of passion and commitment that some people spend their whole life seeking.

Take the plunge (for better or worst)!

Hmm … I am considering just taking a plunge … try whatever I have an inclination for. If it works out … GREAT! … if it does not … I know what I can strike of my list.

OR, maybe, I need to see a career counsellor?! erms …

Pressure

Seems like alot of people who will be graduating this December have been sending out alot of CVs.

This is, definitely, adding alot of pressure on me.

I have yet to draft my CV or my Cover Letter. I have also not researched on companies that I am interested to join.

All I have been doing is programming, reading up on programming and debugging programming.

I think I really need to begin on my SEARCH! (If not, will be in PANIC mode in a few months time.)