i am healed!

Just so that I do not have to repeat myself so many times to all the concerned family and friends I decided to write this post. Took a lot of contemplation before I decided to do this. I guess, there is no hiding, or no need to hide anything.

If you people followed my earlier post about the blurred vision in my right eye. I went for a check and for the past 2 weeks after returning from Dubai, I have been seeing various doctors and they have discovered a tumour in my head. It is located at the pituitary gland, quite big they tell me, around 3 cm by 1.9 cm and it is pressing against my optic nerve, hence, I get blurred vision.

After 1/2 a day of trauma from learning about the tumour and the ‘inevitable’ high risk surgery required to remove the tumour and the long term effects of the surgery, including radiation and hormone replacement, the blood test came back positive for prolactin. It was good news, as it indicated that my tumour could be ‘melted away’ with medication. The length of the treatment is indefinite and as yet, I have not started any medication. Still have more blood test to do this week.

Therefore, I am in Singapore. I will be in Singapore for a while still. I can’t do anything for the moment. So, I am taking a break and doing things which I meant to do for a long time but never got down to. Hence, I am on a ‘long’ break immediately after my graduation.

As usual, I thank u all for your concern and care. I have created another website to track my treatment and you all can view it too @ i am healed!. Explains in detail the problem, what I know about the problem, etc.

If I do not reply ur calls, msgs, emails, etc … pls do forgive me. I sleep a lot these days. I also only reply when I feel like it.

All is well and there is nothing to worry, well, at least I’m not worrying – so why should u?

1st lesson for the New Year

ASSUME

If I ASSUME, I make an ASS of U and ME.

If you ASSUME, you make and ASS of U and ME.

Therefore, do not ASSUME.

Best wishes to everyone for the New Year. All the best in your studies, jobs, personal life and health!

On the road …

I’m on the road, away from the past, away from distractions. Ahead is a tad blurry, a little out of focused. There are trials, there are tribulations, they come to block my paths, but I know that I will overcome. With Him, I overcome all odds and find peace. No fight is too great, no enemy to large, We will overcome and victory will be all the sweeter.

straight versus not-so-straight

There is a straight forward and direct way to doing anything.

There is also a not-so-straight, rather indirect way of doing things.

I choose to go about the route which not many people take. I choose to take the gamble and hit at things that I know I have a higher chance due to circumstances, people I know, etc …

To some this might be like a short cut, like cheating, but to me, it’s a good way to get what you want – quick and fast and with higher guarantee of satisfaction.

So, everyone is happy … ?! employed … graduated … etc … good!

errands

long day … from washing clothes, collecting passport, to buying last minute stuff, to clearing room, to ironing clothes, to visiting ppl in hospital, to collecting stuff from people(s), to coming home to pack.

I’m dead beat!

Tmr is the day, finally, I think I might just konk out on the plane, instead of working on any of the stuff which I wanted to work on.

mq, please take care, u prob won’t see this until u are out of nuh and well, but DO take care …

good bye people.

my bags are packed. no turning back. from now on, it’s an onward charge …

blurry eyed

my right eye has blurred vision for the whole day.

i’m scared.

it never stayed blurr for so long before

need more rest?

or

… i dread the other scenario.

Bag, Cuff Links, Tie and Apple Radio Remote

Throw it all onto the table and we have a xmas exchange.

Ok, thanks for the present, design wise is nice, usability of the bag is good, just that I don’t think it cuts as a laptop bag. Thanks, still!!!

Someone talk until never pay me $$$ back eh … =( Forgiven!

Ok, tmr long day again. Hmm … tired!

Fishball noodle, Fried Carrot Cake, Spring Chicken and Carlsberg

What a waist I am going to have!

Great to meet up finally, after all my exams are over. Probably meet up again not so soon. So, hope u (bear) dun get any more encounters of the 3rd kind and, good, thinking of your marriage already ah and to u (mz) keep up the undying passion, sure u will make it one day. Maybe along the way if it gets too tough, u can even cut down on ur belly. Haha!

Went to ELM, my dad’s office today. It’s far in Yishun! It was interesting for a certain period of time. After a while it just got really dry. It can’t be all that hard to sell and market these products at an exhibition. I’ve sold more uninspiring stuff, i’m sure.

Yet another long day tmr. Hmm … tiring holiday. need a breather soon!

I’m too much of a perfectionist! Even my laptop bag I want for my Mac must be specified to such details, that I can’t locate one that I like within my budget. Sighs! Let them be forced upon me then, so I will have no choice. You are right, I think many times it’s better ppl shove it down my throat cos’ then I dun have a choice, cos’ if I do then I would want so many things to be in a certain particular way that in the end it just all won’t work out.

Ok, nites!

We are fools

We are all fools. We do foolish things, that lack rationality, that defies logic and goes against reason. We are foolish. We try to put things into perspective, we try to make it seem right, we try to sound intelligent, but at the end of it all, we are what we are. We could all be fools. We could all be fortune’s fool. We could all be …

I’m rushing the “patch” for the scheduling software for the company. This week so not time. My dad some more say last minute that the pdt trg was for everyday, then I told him cannot … I only thought it was Monday, and so have made arrangements for other things on the other day liao. Cannot help it!

Fate and luck are two things which I probably not put my faith in. My faith goes into the Almighty. Yet, my sheer faith might appear to many as lackadaisical … I do not apologize for my attitude. I want to find a job (TOO), but I do not want to settle for something less. When I say less, I mean of lesser interest. Many of my peers appears to be caught up in the $$$ chase, or the prestige chase. Spare me! I’m looking neither for the fame or the fortune. I want to find passion, cos’ I believe that with passion, all else will fall into place.

and so, with this added functionality, the Scheduler would be able to do a bit more and have more flexibility. I think the programming style is very very very bad. If I had time to re do the entire thing, that’s if I want to, I would surely plan more and do it much better.

It’s so difficult to understand things in life. Even more difficult to understand things about yourself. Why do you think this way? Why do you act this way? No sure way to know about the outcome of anything but live through it. Yet, if you know what the result will be and want to avoid it, you do so with pre-conceived ideas. You could be right? You could be wrong? At the end of the day, you will never know, cos’ everything that happens happened for a reason and there really isn’t any right or wrong.

Ppl come here, ppl go there. There really isn’t 1 place that can satisfy a person. Maybe it’s not about the place. Maybe it’s about the person. We all do things that we do not understand or think we understand only.

My auntie and uncle have returned from their 5 years overseas stint. No more visits to GZ for me at least not in nice villas.

My room is in a mess. My laptop folders are in a mess. It’s all messy. It’s absolutely frustrating!  I need time to sort it all out, but I’m rushing through life. I’m rushing through my break. I’m rushing. It’s tiring la, especially when I’m supposed to be finally on holiday.

To mq: Get well!

wireless mana?

I sat at Paragon’s Coffee Bean and there were like more than 15 wireless networks, but none of which I was able to access and surf wirelessly for free. Brilliant! I thought they had it all rolled out to cover the major parts of the city. Here you have Starhub still charging people for internet. Delifrance was in the building, but I guess their signal was too weak to be received. Maybe that’s how they ensure the free wireless do not get too much people accessing. Like what my Prof say, someday wireless internet will just be like aircon. Do we charge people for aircon? No, they just factor in the cost.

Wanted to cut my hair at Orchard but at some $10 place like EC House, not a single one in sight from Far East to Orchard Point. I walked that FAR! Was at Mandarin cos’ my auntie and uncle are staying there while being relocated back to Singapore from GZ. Well, tired, hot and with messy hair and still no wireless! sux!

Lei Gardens … dinner was good … Lei gardens live uup to their reputation, lah, as always.

My mother so cute … her birthday wish: I wish that all my wishes will come true! … haha!

Ok, I got 1 wish!

Nites!

p.s. please inform if it’s going to be a belkin remote or the apple remote or the BOOK!