peace

So not peaceful for the past 2 days. My mind had been racing over so many things, especially my hyp.

Be still my little heart! Just think rationally, don’t let things beyond me upset me. Have not felt to uneasy for such a long time. It’s sickening!

Ok, just “shouting out” here, cos’ I don’t want to shout at anyone or scream at anything in real life. Tmr meeting the company for the project presentation. Hope most things gets ironed out and I can figure out my next step.

Things in life are just like that ah … uncertain! You never know what is going to happen until you have a spoken/written form of agreement to state for sure that this thing shall happen or you want something in this manner or something shall happen at that time. Talk, think, second guess, conceptualize are probably just all a waste of time if there is no agreement on what needs to get done or what one wants done or happen. I guess like most problems once I figure out what the barrier is, there would be ahigher possiblity of targetting the barrier and solving the problem. Hope that works. I really do. I don’t like this unpeaceful feeling.

Anyhow, on another subject matter, been reading a book by Neale Donald Walsch titled “Conversations with God book 1″. Still reading the book and the contents it present is totally relevating. I cannot say for sure I believe, want to believe or have to believe. I digest, I think, but ultimately, I realized that there is only one way to fell God. That is to experience him through emotions and feelings. No rational thoughts or facts or history can change or alter my feelings. In fact, they just serve to embellish the point that religion could be all fake. Hence, I discard what ever human facts that humans present and just feel. Based on my experiences I know that God exists and I know what I can do through Him. I can do all things!

Which of course just serves to contradict my first point about my problem in my HYP. It’s not actually a contradiction. It’s just a phase that I am going through in this project. Maybe it is other things in life that is distracting me, but who knows. Ultimately, I know that I will get the project done and to a relatively good fashion, worthy of praise. Just like my examination results. I did not fail. I felt that I was sooo going to fail one module, but Praise and Thanks goes out to Him for making making my wishes and prayers come true once again. Faith! Faith can move mountains. Maybe I could, but I think it would not be good, since that owuld cause major land movements and more earth quakes might occur. (My condolences goes out to the affected people in Indonesia) I hope that everything goes well there and here and everywhere.

Nights.

How to be Dead – Snow Patrol

Please don’t go crazy, if I tell you the truth
No you don’t know what happened
And you never will if
You don’t listen to me while I talk to the wall
This blanket is freezing, it’s been out in the hall
Where you’ve had me for hours
Till I’m sure what I want
But darling I want the same thing that I wanted before
So sweetheart tell me what’s up I won’t stop no way

Please keep your hands down
And stop raising your voice
It’s hardly what I’d be doing if you gave me a choice
It’s a simple suggestion can you give me sometime
So just say yes or no
Why can’t you shoulder the blame
Coz both my shoulders are heavy
From the weight of us both
You’re a big boy now so let’s not talk about growth
You’ve not heard a single word I have said…
Oh, my God

Please take it easy it can’t all be my fault
I haven’t made half the mistakes
That you’ve listed so far
Oh baby let me explain something
It’s all down to drugs
At least I remember taking the and not a lot else
It seems I’ve stepped over lines
You’ve drawn again and again
But if the ecstacy’s in the wit is definitely out
Dr. Jekyll is wrestling Hyde for my pride

Thanks to the Green Vespa for the song that fateful night. Thanks to Fionna for sharing the song with me.

Over my head

Buried.

Aiyo … no time, but still want to whine.

So tada!

Let me have peace and this is how I overcome.

Domain is up!

Finally, it is back up again. Gave me a scare that day when I came back home at like 1 + am.

No time to update on Cambodia right now. Trying to settle me HYP stuff with my Prof and the company.

Cross Fingers all goes according to plan.

I shall will it so … (“,)

bye bye

Domain Down

Back from Cambodia and I realized that my domain is down becaused Ihad forgot to renew the domain. Opps!

Well, I sent in my payment and the site should be up again in a couple of days.

Will update more on my trip to Kampuchea (or Cambodia) soon.

Interview with a whole bunch of people

Had a very interesting interview today. Went for interview with a media company and the interview was kind of like a group interview with main focus on Case Analysis. Took like 3 and half hours to complete all 7 of us. Phew!

Quite an eye opener, cos’ it is conducted more like a group discussion rather than anything. Also learnt about the career path in a media industry and hmm … I’ll think about it.

Going off in like less than 7 hours. Yea! To the unsuspecting personnel, I am heading to Cambodia. Will be visiting Siem Reap (Angkor Wat) and Pnomh Penh and maybe someplace else … it is free and easy, so no plan, no guide … hope I don’t get lost … (“,)

See you all back in 10 days time.

It’s is official, my memory stick is spoilt. need to get it checked with the manufacturer and see if got warranty. So, ipod down, Clie down, phone no mp3 function. Looks like I have no mp3 player for the trip. Someone PLEASE entertain me!!! (“,)

Mothers’ Day

To all mothers, hope you all have a great day today. It really is just like any other Sunday, but it is a day that people put aside specially to show that extra thanks and concern to mothers.

Got my brother to come over for lunch, and we went to eat at Curry Wok, near Coronation which served decent Local Fare. My mother likes Curry Fish Head, hence, I told my brother to come and eat (even though he don’t really like curry, or pork knuckle – which we ordered as well). After lunch, we gave her the uZap!

“Wah!!! I really need it, ah?!”

“Well … good to try la, at least if it works then good, right?”

So, probably later on at night, my mum can try it on for “size”. (“,)

Count down to … Yea!!!

Living with Intent (Part 3)

Every Saturday, my blog entry seems to become a commentary of the Church Service. Hmm … well, at least for those people who fail to go to church, not Christians, or just about anyone who reads this space, I can bring (hopefully) a meaningful message.

Joshua 24:15
15 And if it seems evil to you to serve the LORD, choose this day whom you will serve, whether the gods which your fathers served Beyond the River, or the gods of the Amorites in whose land you live. But as for me and my house, we will serve the LORD.

Living with Intent involves making Godly Choices and these choices can be made by us based on 3 things:

1. Who God is?
We must know who God is to us. We must know that He is unfailing in His love, He is everything and anything. To me, God is my provider, my giver of all, I can do all things through him that strengthens me. (Will you let him?)

2. What God has done?
Having a track record with God might be a reflection of what a relationship with God is going to be. A rocky past might still lead to a rocky future. A good past might lead to a good future. Nonetheless, (here I add on from the Pastor) that we must never be compromising, and never cease to seek for a good relationship with God no matter the past. In my life, there are too many good things that have been done and I have acknowledge Him for being the all powerful that makes my world turn round. (Go ahead, try Him!)

3.What God will do?
God had made promises in the Bible. Where we become leaders in our fields, where we will be at peace, etc … Learning to embrace these promises that God had made for us, takes us down the path of making the right choices, the Godly choices that will eventually lead us to living a life with intent.

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I wanted to write “Stay tuned next week for the final part of the message”, but I realized that I would not be able to go to church next week. Oh well …

I got Hillsong – United this afternoon. Finally decided to get the CD and I bought it while I was waiting for my photos to be printed. It is a good album. Oh, speaking of photos, I took some pictures of myself this morning with my digicam and created some passport size photos to print out, since I needed those. My face looks a little chubby liao. sighs … I know … some people say I look better like that, but … erm … I am not used to it la … nvm … still on the lose 4 kg objective even after 5 months back from SH. Looks like I am only good at maintaining or gaining weight, but not losing it. =)

Waist and away

Sitting down is the most comfortable position to be in after a heavy meal. Yet, sitting down causes the most accumulation of … ahem … in the waist area after a heavy meal. So, walk, yar?!

Ate a heavy lunch today at Warren Country Club, courtesy of my mum’s routine 3 months expenditure “requirement”. Ate the usual Dim Sum at Yan Palace and it’s nice. Except for the 3 unique dim sum that they serve, I have found a much better alternative elsewhere. Of course, that elsewhere is somewhere in Guangzhou China and hence doesn’t make too much sense for me to be thinking about something so far away.

BUT

I do miss the Chee Cheong Fun in GZ. The one my auntie brought me to, was simply delicious. The skin was thin and the sauce used was tasty. (***Salivates***). The best dim sum is also at Lei Gardens … yums yums! Ok, that is a totally different league. So, as a “as yet made it” personnel, I shall settle for the mass appeal dim sum that is served generously around Singapore.

Every night I want to watch some show, but I always find myself so tired and so cannot stay up enough to watch the show. This is so unlike in SH when I can just stay up certain nights and “pia” my Alias. Now, I sleep late, wake up late and remain as tired as ever. It’s like I only get out of bed if there is a motivation to do so. There will be one …

Finally installed JBoss … and its working … now to start experimenting with some example Java Beans … yikes!!! Yawns!

Ivin’s

Was closed and so could not go and eat there. Sighs … next time then … so ended up eating at some 煮炒 place at Binjai Park and it was not too bad, just that the Frog’s leg wasn’t done too well. After that retreated to Coffee Bean at 6th Avenue for a chit chat session. It’s nice, once again, to chill out with someone I am so comfortable with. =)