excited and afraid

so many things all coming all at the same time … great opportunities, up for my grabs!

I have to be calm and think straight and prepare well for all these golden moments … once i lose them, they will never come back.

Of course, I will put in my best efforts … and the rest I leave to the Lord … my fren said it well, “You have the Lord with you.”

and so, one of my most favourite verses from the bibile and always timely advice:

Trust in the Lord with all your heart,
And lean not on your own understanding.
In all your ways acknowledge Him,
And he will make your paths straight.

Proverbs 3: 4 – 6

good night … early morning is my uncle’s wedding … will have to crawl out of bed!

i just want to say … Praise the Lord!

i am stumped

yes, cs3220 is too big, too huge and too complex … how am i going to complete this assignment … understanding the qn itself is already taking me such a long time … deciding what i have to do is again going to take me a very long time … yet, time is not a luxury i can afford at the moment … everyone is rushing deadlines … i guess, “dead” does not appear in “deadlines” for nothing, yea?!

its … its … its nana!

Check it out!

Its Christina getting famous! you go gurl!

忍

What do you do when you have someone who just doesn’t do what he/she was supposed to do? What do you do if that someone always waits till the last minute to do anything useful and in the end screw everything up!

Gosh, if you can’t be useful, don’t act like you are till the last minute and then throw bomb shell… dunno how to use the program is not an excuse, cos’ I (like many others) have also learnt the program on the spot just off the job. If you said you have played around and experiemented with the program and still can’t figure it out, then only one thing is clear … you did not even try cos’ if you had, you would definitely have figured out how to use the program. Its really that simple.

So, you spend all your other free time on doing who know what and spend the last few hours just frantically trying to finish up whatever things that you could have done so long ago. Gosh, documentation for CS3215 really is all bullshit, just come up with some beautiful tale on how we developed our software come up with a timeline and viola … but no, you have to pretend that everything is going right, and that you have everything ROUGHLY under control and when we ask for it, its actually ROUGHLY nothing!

my patience wears really thin … and to start with, I must admit that I am not a very patient person. so forgive me if I blow my top! Enough of these stressful issues! sighs!

Had this other project and I also confronted the “free rider” with a written note and he replied me … hmm … said he had some family problems and that was causing him to not concentrate on the work at hand. I shan’t doubt him further since its supposedly quite a serious family problem. After all, if he really did lie to me about that problem, I’m sure justice will prevail and that family problem will happen. But that’s another story altogether.

I cut my thumb while washing my mother’s car … sighs … lucky doesn’t hurt … (lucky got high threshhold of pain)

tmr marks yet another milestone in this semester … end of Assign 4 of CS3215 … 1 more to go … and that will end on the 8th of Nov 2004. still so much things to do … cs3220 assign 2, cs3212 assign 10 … i need more energy, and i need more time …

Matthew 6:9-13

This, then, is how you should pray:

‘Our Father in heaven, hallowed be your name,
your kingdom come, your will be done on earth as it is in heaven.
Give us today our daily bread.
Forgive us our debts, as we also have forgiven our debtors.
And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from the evil one.’

The Lord’s Prayer.

the new and improved iBook!!!

picture from APPLE site … and links you there too.

oh drools .. new iBook … with more features and lesser price!

so tempted … sighs … if only the pBook will get cheaper then i will surely get it …

oh well … happy drooling to everyone!

no topic

its almost the end of the week … and its also almost the end of another deadline for the semester … assignment 4 for CS3215 is coming to an end on 25th Oct 2004. with our fingers crossed, we hope to achieve everything good about it … just hope that we are in a good direction and that we are not the worst group … i don’t ask for much … maybe everything at least a B+ … i really want to go up and not down anymore!

oh well, that’s another few more weeks …

my mind is blank … nothing to write anymore … think i am too tired and just need a good long nap …

这堂课真的非常浪费时间。

好闲啊!
CS3212的课不好玩的!
不知道那个人在自讲什么!
我要挣脱! 我不要玩了! 让我走吧!
饶了我把!
今天,真得很累.已经太久没有好好的睡一场了.
应该听课了吧!

high strung

I am in a very high strung mood today … not excitable per say, nor distressed, nor displeased, nor happy, nor anxious … just high strung …

I have my reason, but I shan’t share it …

just remembered a phrase from a song, “Words are useless, especially sentences, they can’t explain how I feel.” (which song it came from doesn’t matter)

I really don’t know how to carry on this entry … I think its just not a good day … its a very negative day … maybe its too much work … maybe its too much stress … maybe something else …

doesn’t matter … ok … I am really not making sense here … thanks for dropping by anyhow!